I can only get off to the fantasy of not being me. It’s to the point where I can get off staring at a gif of a cute girl and imagining what life would be like if I was her in about a minute, but I have to fake orgasms with my boyfriend because I feel like I’m nowhere near close to cumming with him.
I think I’ve accidentally trained my brain to only be turned on if I’m thinking about not being myself. I find it impossible to stay in the moment and cum when I’m having actual sex. I feel broken and I hate that I’m like this.